At The Heart of it All
Conflict produces terror. Having a desire to live, but realizing that death is inevitable is managed by embracing cultural structures or systems to provide life with meaning and value. The knowledge of this Absurdity of Existence transforms into social constructs and eschatological fantasies that try to make the sense of ending bearable. On a larger scale, societies build symbols: laws, cultures and belief systems to explain the significance and meaning of life.
After my father’s slow withering by a hereditary heart condition, I became conscious of how it was affecting me as well, this inheritance of mine. Slowly coming to terms with my own mortality, a cognition that I had actively suppressed, manifested itself by recreating, constructing and making these internal worlds real. To suppress the murmur of everyday and create spaces that solely I inhabit and control. Building places and spaces where time is in stasis, suspended between the Tick and Tock.
At The Heart of it All is a study of the individual contemplating his own mortality, how one looks at his existence, at the same time seeing the beginning and sensing the inevitable end. What have been imagined are these Spaces within Spaces, where the remnants of humanity exist in the form of wrecks, ruins and absence. The series has been exhibited around Europe and has been realized into a monograph by Hatje Cantz.